Sometimes I do forget, Oh how much we could ease the lives we lead
If we learn to let go, the reins that we hold
Return to our souls, and the spirit let flow
So you see, upon everyday faces there's a million shades to
Express definition of grace
But the method I choose me perrogative
There's so much love in me I got to give.
Nujabes featuring Shing02
I'm so sick of school, frack it's so boring. Haha I have like no motivation anymore to do anything. Luckily my classes have been sorta chill and easy. i ended up getting a 4.0 gpa because of the grades i had, hopefully they stay that way or get higher, wouldn't that be awesome haha.
Arghh I want to like go into a like a coma for a day, where I can just replenish all the cells and everything would just become healthy and relaxed and reenergized. Haha then wake up the next day and just feel so fine that it'll blow your mind haha.
Thankfully spring break is upon us and most of my teachers are pretty chill about it, i know that next week my brain will shut off for most of the week haha. already in break mode haha. I sorta have senioritis except I still worry i guess. haha Yups yups cool beans, i guess haha. Anyways thought I'd share my loath haha.
Dam I suck haha. Freaking jerking the car back and forth whenever I stop and start. Yeah I'm scared I'll break the car haha. It's pretty difficult because of the whole synchronizing of the gas and clutch, very difficult. You'll see me on a hill rolling backwards just to freaking start going forward. Yeah not that great right now but I WILL get it by this month, hopefully.
So today I went on a little practice session with my dad and I didn't learn anything, nor did I get any better. Then we went home and he actually taught me something instead of yelling at me, or, as he would put, talk to me in his usual but menacing voice. So yeah got to get a little better at it, but still I suck haha.
Mmmmm Sushi. Good stuff. I think the Onami in Mission has a better selection of sushi than the one in Esco, but i dunno. Yups today I went to Onami for Jennifer Lee's birthday, unfortunately i ended up alone haha. Everyone who I knew flaked, horribly, and Orion said he had to go early, so he couldn't eat haha. So it was just me, jennifer and jennifer's friends, it was kind of awkward sitting there listening to their conversations haha. yups good stuff though, made jennifer go through a box that was filled with paper and rice and candy and coins and an itunes giftcard, pretty entertaining.
Yups today was a good day I guess, very chill at least. Haha i didn't do an ounce of homework though and now i'm too lazy haha. Dam I wish it was summer already haha or spring break either one would be nice haha. Dam I really want to drive stick, dam me hurry up and get it dam haha.
Do people see me as serious? I know that sometimes there are times when I am serious, it's probably when I'm annoyed or frustrated, which is rare. Still I don't really see myself as that serious. I don't really get angry or sad but I'm usually neutral or happy, most of the time happy or content. I dunno though, I don't like to get serious, it's kind of uncomfortable and awkward, know what I mean?.
Being serious is usually not the only emotion at the time. I mean you could look at the situation in several ways and serious is just one of them, I guess. For me I like to think of it as a stream, a very fast flowing stream. The stream's filled with a bunch of different rocks, some small, large, oddly shaped ones, you know a variety. Well my philosophy is the kind where the streams strong enough to push some rocks along with it, the rocks are going with the flow. I think that's how life is supposed to be, going with the flow, and at times the rocks will catch a snag where it'll work hard to get out of and also at times the rocks will stand firm. That's how I see it, just go with the flow. It might seem uncontrollable but i like it.
Yups probably one of my more serious posts wouldn't you say haha. Still I don't like to be so serious, I'm more of an emotional recluse, not many of my emotions would be shared nor any of my most secret of mental activities haha. Anyways hope you had fun dwelling into the inside of my unconscious made conscious haha.
Man I told myself and everyone that I would not join the Navy, or the marines, or the Air Force. Wow I just went past this and I've decided it's probably a good choice haha. Of course I gotta be accepted into the program but there's this NROTC scholarship program. It helps with tuition and books and stuff but you have to do a lot of side activities relating to the Navy. This basically means that your doing your work plus training to go into the Navy. I'm obligated to serve some time in the Navy but it helps with college costs, and if i go into premed, my debts will be minimal and i'll have a pretty steady income.
Some letter came in today about the Navy program and I was skeptical at first but i started thinking and thinking about what would happen in the future. NROTC seems like a worthwhile program, even if i have to serve time after college, it should be alright. Hmmm so yeah thought I'd say that haha. Never thought I'd actually decide to do something like this, I always abhorred the idea, but this was kind of too good to pass up, so yeah cool beans haha.
Haha so today we had a half day, we got out at 11:30 instead of 2:12. So we basically had 4 hours of whatever and my parents let me go out, thankfully. After school i meet up with tonhu, cause we have the same class, and we decide to meet alex liu and orion at alex's car. Pretty cool beans from there haha. We decided to go to the beach and chill and get wet, and it was pretty freaking cool haha, even alex liu went in and it was crazy haha.
Yeps yeps some cool beans there haha, everything else was pretty tight. We went to La Jolla Cove and saw some nice cars and a nice scenery. Of course we got lost trying to get to the place as usual haha. We went down to the tidepools and saw some anenomes and hermit crabs haha. yeps everyone touched one haha due to peer pressure haha. Afterwards we headed out and tried to make our way back home, but unfortunately we got lost again haha. We ended up near mission bay island place majigger place and it got pretty bad ahah. After eventually getting on the 5 freeway we make it back home and now i'm clean haha.
Yups fun stuff haha. Hopefully tomorrow will be exciting also haha yay for half days. Also Tomorrow is Jennifer Lee's birthday, so happy birthday hehe. Why you so happy? haha. Wells that was some cool beans and stuff so see you next time.
Last week I told my cousin to look for some cheap ipods on amazon.com since i don't have an account there and she does. The next day she sends me some links to ipods being sold at the site. They were pretty good, mostly 4gb but anythings better than a freakin 1 gb. I find one that's about $75 with shipping costs and it was perfect so my cousin comes over to pick up the money and orders the ipod.
i was expecting it to come in later on this week, hopefully before friday, but to my surprise it came today hehe. So now i've been doing some downloading and i can now listen to way more songs than half a cd haha. Yeah most interesting thing that happened today haha and it was pretty excite haha.
O yeah today is Egyptian Pi Day ---> 3.16 haha. Yups so in math class i had massive amounts of pie. Mostly apple, but there was lemon merengue, keylime?, and others. All of them were super good haha. Yeah that ended the school day in a fun and tasty way especially since the period before i had a test that i know i didn't do very well. So yeah pretty interesting day hope you had fun reading it see you next time.
Hmm so i was in the shower today and I got to thinking, haha i like thinking in the shower for some reason. Anyways i got to thinking about why i do stuff and other such stuff. You know like thinking about why i want a girlfriend, why i want to drive, why i wanna get a job. And from my mental excercise i have come to the conclusion that it is all because of independence.
Independence means that you have your freedom, you can do whatever you want and can be a sort of measure of how mature you are. I think from what i have been thinking it's all about wanting my independence. I think that i've just been thinking that maybe if i can do this i'll be able to be independent, to be mature.
Having a relationship with someone shows that your able to care about others, your able to like who you want. i've realized, though, that i don't need that kind of stuff, it'll probably just complicate things, not make it better. And getting rushed into that kind of stuff just shows how immature I am.
Driving a car, however, and getting a job would be great for my strive towards independence. It means i can uphold some responsibility and management skills. If my parents get my insurance and i learn to drive stick then hopefully it'll be beneficial towards my goal of maturity.
Of course I can't rush this, I know i can't, I still need my parents for a lot of things. They've done so much for me and I can't become fully independent, I still need them for money and gas and food, but still they have been kind of sheltering me. I really just need to experience a little bit more of the world, a little more life experience would help me a lot.
Yeah hopefully i'll be getting a job over the summer, take some classes at miramar, and stay with my volunteering services. If I was able to do all this on my own, including getting my own transportation, I would feel like I was able to get a little more independent, away from depending on my parent's help.
Wow that was kind of serious huh? haha i don't really like to talk serious but kind of got an epiphany haha. Anyways yeps still waiting on getting insured so i can drive haha, hopefully it'll be soon cause i'm really itching to drive on my own, again some more independence i'm trying to get. haha yeps yeps hope you had fun reading, see you next time.
Man i am so happy haha. I passed my driver's test with 12 mistakes haha, so i barely passed, just barely. haha Man it was nerve wracking and stuff i was so nervous. I got the old strict guy and thankfully i passed so stoked haha. I am now able to drive by myself legally haha.
Yups good thing of the day, and the fact that i was able to get out of going to school, bonus haha. Yeah good stuff and cool beans but that's all there really is to say about today so ill see you next time and remember Jennifer Lee likes it rough haha.
Sweet so i was getting sick of my freaking 1 gig ipod and how it can't hold beans and how i was getting sick of the songs i put in there, so i took out almost every song i had in there haha. I got new songs and its pretty sick haha.
Thankfully i was able to download Anya Marina and Lady Gaga's full albums and also all of the Initial D songs, which are awesome and sick haha. anyways Imma get outta here to let the nieces sleep, see ya next time.
Suhweet haha finished my behind the wheel classes so i'm all set for my test on wednesday. haha i'm nervous and excited i guess that's called anxiousness huh? haha. Yeps yeps hopefully by wednesday at 12 p.m. i'll be a licensed driver haha.
Yeah pretty sweet on saturday, finished that then went with the cousins and bubba to the mall. Yeah fun stuff haha. Bubba gave me some life lessons haha some about life and others about "bitches" haha. That was pretty entertaining and enlightening, all of what he said made sense. Yups yups good times haha.
My streak for going to church is pretty dam good haha. Almost havent missed a single one, almost. Then the day rolls by and nothing really exciting happens except maybe Combat Arms, an online first person shooter, kind of like Call of Duty. In the evening, maybe 30 minutes from when i wrote this, I went to the Petco in Mira Mesa cause the fish were on sale haha.
So now the new editions to my super cool tank are:
-Chinese Algae Eater
-Mickey Mouse Platy
-Guppy
haha help me name them now haha. So yeah some cool beans for you haha. Hope you had a good weekend, and I'll see you next time. o and wish me luck on my test on Wednesday hehe.
The song you sing is sentimental.
The song you sing is making me well.
I like it, like it outta control.
The song you sing gives me vertigo.
Wow haha its a good song so look it up. Anyways at my volunteer today i got some false hope haha. So one of the ladies that work in the microbio lab tells me that theres a new girl that's volunteering there. I get excited cause now i might not be bored. So after i finish filing some papers its about 5 and i go talk to her. She asks me what my shift was and i tell her then i ask how long she was gonna be here and it turns out she's gonna be leaving soon cause her shift was from 1 - 5. I was like dam now im still gonna be bored haha. Yeah that was some cool beans haha.
So yeah ill see ya later stay tune for more from either my life or some plinky prompts haha.
Dude swords are awesome haha. Plus everyone would be happy. The chivalrous age would also come back, wouldn't that be nice haha. People will/might actually be loyal now.
Yeah swords would be awesome to have a comeback. I mean walking around with a huge like katana kind of thing would be awesome. Then challenge your friends to friendly duels. Man that would get so intense.
I know what i would do if i could carry a sword. I would probably try and find some sort of dragon to slay. Then after becoming awesome, I would establish my own court of freaking cool knights haha. We'd have our sweet little emblem thingy and be the baddest posse around. Yeah my own little round table, awesome haha.
Wells swords would be cool beans to have around now. haha if only if only haha.
Here's some advice i think would be great. Hopefully it helps.
Go with your first impulse. I always get frustrated when I think about doing something, fail to do that something, then end up regretting it. Like say getting the wrong answer on a test when you changed it from the right answer, doesn't that just tick you off haha.
So always follow your instincts and never over think the simple stuff. Whenever you over think, you end up making "mountains out of molehills" haha. Small signs and memories can have adverse effects on your answers and solutions. I figure whatever happens, happens, so go with your instincts. I may not be following this very closely but i've seen where it helps, i think haha.
Hopefully this helps someone. I was once trying to like someone, but i was kind of being anal retentive and kept making signs up and that did not end well haha. Wells yeah choose your first impulse and try not to think too hard.
haha so i was bored today and i went on this blog thingy and i found out that there's this website called Plinky. It gives people prompts to answer for their blog or even facebook. i thought that was interesting so i decided to do one, and its the post below i think.
It's pretty interesting, a lot of unique questions. So now maybe my blog won't be as barren as it has been haha.
yeah i thought id let you know, cause i thought it was cool beans so give it a shot haha. Wells until next time see you.
Sweet one thousand dollars would be awesome. I think i would spend it on the essentials. Ya know like clothes and food and video games and a computer maybe? Haha not really essentials but a new computer or laptop would be nice.
I would definitely try to invest some of it and try to make more money to spend but I'd probably be way too unlucky haha.
yeps video games or a new system. nothing too grand though haha. I know what my friend would spend it on though or actually not spend it on haha. He would probably use it to make life hard for others or just hoard it away haha.
Hmm what else would be good to spend it on. Maybe new shoes haha mine are a little ragged but still good and well enough to walk in and that's really all that matters, right?
Well that's about it i don't really need anything else, not really a needy person so yeah a laptop, shoes, clothes, video games haha.
